Justine Dell

Promise My sight is clear Eternal hope sinks into my soul You're the wind rushing over me,  Lifting the hairs along my skin,  Sweeping away all hurt,  Filling me with glow, a determination A devotion Your passion lights me from within Your affection lulls any pain Your love fills me completely Forever is my promise And my promise is yours ~JD

The Storm It’s the moment you realize how quickly you can be crushed. How rapidly you crumble. Love should be warmth and light. But this was so cruel, so swift. No time to stop and think. Consider. The words continue to spin around you, a tornado you can’t escape. Slashing your heart, bending and breaking your soul, your spirit.   Life tilts, uncomfortably. You question your worth. Stability. Your very happiness. You flick the tears away, suck in the soft sobs. And pray for the end of the storm. 

The Old, The New It is done Damaged, bent, and broken Jagged pink lines scar my thoughts, my soul My paper thin skin squeezes my body, Flaking off like the paint from the hundred year old house down the lane  My heart shrunken, shriveled with tattered veins Each step more difficult than the one before I know this day will be my last... The peek of dawn appears on the glistening white horizon Cheers and celebration flow into my ears, igniting something new, different. Beats thrum through me, awakening my cells, shaking off the worn Time fades away Scars fade Hurt heals Blood rushes through my veins, strengthening my heart I straighten, my body shedding the last feelings of old With a renewed hope and a smile, I step into 2018

I am not broken Why can't you see you are hurting me? Why can't you see I'm not as strong as you? My thoughts and feelings are a raging river flowing through me.  Your laughter and disdain coat me with lava, halting my emotions, searing every inch of me.  Do you not respect my feelings? Me? Can you not see this is who I am? What I am?  It's love or leave.  Respect of walk away.  Understand or go.  So go. 

The End I sit here, weak and dreary My eyes swollen, dark and teary Each breath I take, tight and shaky The wind feels like sand, coarse and breaking Did you know I would feel like this? It’s like the earth moved and I didn’t Yet, I’m spinning out of control With a life that doesn’t have you in it. The sun no long wakens me early in the morning The sounds of your voice no longer cradles me That should’ve been my first warning Darkness rocks me to sleep now, its cold breath chills my bones I wear loneliness like a blanket, oh, how I wish I would’ve known You’ll be fine, they say, the pain will fade with time But this isn’t their ache, their sorrow has never fallen in this line I pray the end is near, for another day will surely kill me But I’ve been told the agony never fades Only ebbs and flows like the sea I must conclude the rest of my life will be no more Than the replay of love and joy that, ...

               Disburse darkness           When evil overrides      3 poor, humble people Their lives shredded                      and torn. No need to cry little one -      The sun will still           shine bright.                I'm sorry for your sadness           Emptiness,      Sorry, Damage                     What else can I say? Time   Will      Pass                     Wounds                             Will                                 ...

The weight is heavy The burden unbearable The results uncertain Fight to breathe Fight to live Fight to even die How you want How you need How you see See the pain See the envy See the future We will survive We will thrive We will be free

     I walk into my rat-packed humble room.      Oh, how I long to be elsewhere. Wear walls Grungy floors Old paintings      Every time I enter my room, I am intriguingly engulfed in it's horrendous boredom.      I am a simple woman Woes Afflictions Distractions Problems     They never seem to bother me. I have two chairs here. Hopefully someone can share one with me someday. I simply look out      my eight panel window           and dream how life could be -                if and only if...      I could get out this hole in the wall ~Written by me at the age of 14

What is love?  Love is an emotion, art, a state of mind, or even just a dream.  Love is powerful.   Love is unconditional. Heart pounding. Earth shattering. Soul moving.  Terrifying.  Love is everything you thought you never needed but can't live without.  It's the moment your chest compresses and heart shutters at the thought of them when they aren't by your side.  It's the smile that crosses your face when you think of them.   It's the warmth and delight of a hug you waited for all day.  It's soothing. Comfortable.   It doesn't judge. Ridicule. Oppress.  It lifts. Inspires.  And, it hurts. It's the head-over-heels, can't live without them (ever), heart pounding, tear shedding, life changing, world spinning, turn your life upside-down and inside-out kind of feeling.  Love is powerful.  Terrifying.  It's soothing. Comfortable.  And, it hurts.  Love is a ...